Sensory deprivation.
Being trapped in an infinite well of darkness and silence. It is the worst
feeling in the world, but even that is a fabrication of the mind and not
actually a feeling.
Jacob’s consciousness
floated in that darkness. He was completely alone, and he had no contact with
the outside world. Time was a novel concept that held no meaning in the
darkness.
Jacob had gone through
this before. When he joined the Reactionary Force and been chosen for more, “they”
had done things to him. He was thrust back into the first room he had entered.
The water was cold, and the darkness was total. He felt panic grip his heart as
he frantically searched for an exit, but all he found was unyielding metal. His
panic intensified as he took his last gulp of air before the room filled up
completely. His last thoughts were of Lisa. The darkness claimed him as his air
finally escaped lungs.
Jacob was back in the
room. He was still sitting in the chair, sweat beading along his brow. His
breathing was labored, but he was breathing. Relief washed over him, but he was
confused. He stared at his reflection, and it stared back at him. There was a
click.
“You felt fear,” a
gravelly voice stated. “You felt concern. You felt panic. You felt despair.”
“Now, you feel
confused,” the voice mused. “These are basic emotions, primal emotions. They are
useless.” The voice growled.
“Emotions are weakness.
Survival requires action. Action requires thought. Thought requires clarity. To
achieve clarity, you must cast off your weakness.”
“I don’t understand,”
Jacob said quizzically.
“Understanding is not
required at this juncture. You will be made to understand, but that will happen
later if you are deemed able.”
Jacob felt his resolve
harden. He set his jaw, sat up straight, and squared his shoulders.
“I am able,” Jacob
said. “I will not fail.”
“Your pride is a
weakness, and you will fail,” the voice said absently. “You have no choice in
the matter. We will break you, shatter your spirit. Your resolve will falter
and crumble. If we deem you able after all of this, we will rebuild you, make
you stronger. By the time we are finished, you will have no equal in the normal
world.”
Jacob stared at the
glass and narrowed his eyes.
“If I fail?” he asked.
“Failure?” the voice
responded. “You do not understand this basic point: failure is not available to
you. You either survive, or you die.”
Jacob opened his mouth,
but the voice spoke before he could.
“Enough words. You
passed the first test. Now, we begin the real program.”
Jacob was plunged into
darkness, and he lost consciousness.
His memory faded, and
he arrived back at his mind in the black nothing. Other memories were bright
flashes in the darkness, but each one was fleeting. Images of his parents, his
home in London, Heathrow on a busy morning, Lisa’s carefree smile; nothing
stayed long enough to study in any detail.
Jacob couldn’t remember
why he was in the darkness. Just out of reach, the answer eluded him, but he
knew it was important.
How could he forget? It
was extremely important that he remember.
What was his purpose?
“Your purpose,” the
gravelly voice from before started, “is to do your job.”
“I don’t understand,”
Jacob heard himself say.
“Understanding is not
required,” the voice explained. “In fact, the less you think about
understanding it, the better you will be able to complete your mission.”
Jacob frowned. Wasn’t
it important to think and understand?
“Quite the opposite,”
the voice responded. “If you concern yourself with understanding, you will miss
important details.”
“Doesn’t that imply
understanding?” Jacob asked quizzically.
“Understanding is a
hindrance. You understand how a fabricator works, and it is working properly.
Is there something wrong with it?”
“You just said that it
was working properly. Nothing is wrong with it.”
“Wrong,” the voice
stated dryly. “Because of your complacency that is bred by your so-called
understanding, you have failed to notice a small fluctuation in power. A
terrorist cell is now armed and in control of the reactor.”
“But that is so
unlikely as to never happen,” Jacob said.
“And that is why you
would fail.” The voice shot back. “Question everything. Take nothing at face
value. Never make assumptions. You no longer have the luxury.”
Jacob sighed.
“How will I know if I
have the complete picture?”
“When the remaining
questions are irrelevant,” the voice responded.
The conversation
continued, but the voices quickly faded into nothing.
Once more, Jacob
floated alone in the darkness, the only being in existence.
His thoughts turned to
what he needed to know. He was with someone else, a friend. They were more than
friends. No, theirs was something words could barely describe. Brotherhood.
“Lieutenant,” a voice
said from behind Jacob.
Jacob spun around and
snapped a salute.
“Captain.”
“At ease,” the man
said. “I’m retired, LT. No need for the ceremony.”
“If it’s all the same,
sir, you’ve earned the ceremony more than most.”
“Is that so?” the man
asked as he crossed his arms.
“Yes, sir. You served
with honor and distinction throughout your career in the RF. You quickly rose
to the rank of Captain where you remained, by choice, until you suffered severe
injuries in the line of duty and were given the option to muster out with full
benefits due the rank of Colonel, but you refused the promotion to remain at
the rank of Captain. Nobody living has given more,” Jacob finished.
The man scratched at
the stubble on his chin absent-mindedly with his left hand. He dropped it back
to his side.
“I supposed you’re
right, LT.”
“Please, sir, you can
simply call me Jacob.”
“In that case, Jacob,”
the man said as he stretched his left hand and reached out with his right, “call
me Mason.”
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